真爱需要等待

《真爱需要等待》will be the movie that i will watch in this saturday fellowship.This title reminds me of few words talked by Alvin one year ago. I do agree and believe this sentence.

'God will grant u a partner whom u might not like most, but he is the one who suits u most.'

i didn't agree at the beginning. how do i feel happy if he is not the one i like most? until now, i agree with Alvin. The one who suits with me can accept all my weakness. He can talk to me for any topics. He can understand my feeling and thoughts as he exprienced it before. Hmm... in deep thought again

it's just my random thought today before i go to first pharmaceutics lab in second sem. =)

polar bear

now i understand why polar bears have to hibernate in winter.

unfortunately i am not a polar bear. =.=. hopefully i can wake up early tomoro. should buy another alarm clock, i think....

那四块地砖

超喜欢在晚上坐在外婆的家门口， 可以坐在那四块地砖发呆。这是我的小天地。是我充分发挥爱哭包的好地方。不需要对别人谎称说自己鼻子敏感，更不用眼睛来拼命地吸眼泪。眼泪不就是上帝让我们抒发心情的吗？

捧着一卷卫生纸，拼命地擦眼泪。以前我的猫还在世的时候，终是抱着它们大哭，哭到它们个个满头湿湿的。搞到最后还得帮它们擦干净。就这样，一卷卫生纸用完了。眼泪也停了。原来那时的星星是最美的，因为是我放下一切的不快，用心去观赏它们。

哭也哭爽了，自己就开始想。到底哭什么呢？现在不是好好的吗？我还有眼睛看星星，还有卫生纸给我擦眼泪。还有神的眷顾，只要一转身，家的大门就在我眼前。

不过，还是改不掉爱偷哭的习惯。前几天就在那打坐了好几个晚上。哭到眼睛都肿了。哈哈。

看看天上的星星，是时候不哭了。因为上帝的恩典够我用。黎明还是会来临的。

forget

i read this article many years ago.

when i am young, i want to grow up.

when i am teenage, i am busy with studies.

when i am 20 years old, i am busy of finding job

when i am 30 years old, i am busy to find life partners

when i am 40 years old, i am busy to work '

when i am 60 years old, i am busy to take care of my grandchilds

when i am almost dead, i find that i forget how to enjoy my life

i remembered this article when watching the movie of 'click' The main character is bored and frustrated with all the hardships in his life. His problems are solved as he gets an electronic device. once he clicks it, he can skip the part that he dislikes. No more traffic jams. No more conflicts between his wife and him. After that, he found that there's something wrong since the electronic device works itself. Just with a blink of eye, he is almost dead. luckly it's a just a movie. the main character is given 1 more chance to restart his life.

In other words, as in reality, we are lucky and at the same time unlucky, compared to the main character. we can't go back to our past. Noone can do tat. Meanwhile, we are lucky too because we are still alive! It's time for us to appreciate people or thing around us. Time for us to foster relationship with God. Time for us to enjoy our life. When we are in the hardship, perhaps we should stop for a while. Take a deep breath and move on.

Breathing is a blessing too. Don't u think?

my peninsula

When i was 5 years old, my grandma likes to fry the eggs for me. the shape of fried egg looked like peninsula malaysia. starting by that time, peninsula officially means fried egg. 'Grandma, i want a peninsula everyday!'

When i was 10 years old, i came back home with despair. Waiting and holding plate beside grandma, i cried ' i lose in inter-school competition. no chance for me to go for peninsula. no plane anymore'. She just put the 'peninsula' on my plate. i swallowed it in tears. It's the first time i ate such a salty egg but with the taste of love.

When i was 15 years old, i told my grandma that i want to study in UM. it's the best uni for medicine. Again, she put one more peninsula on my plate. 'Then, u have to eat more peninsula before u fly.'

When i am 19 years old, i managed to study in shah alam. My dream comes true but i am not as happy as i expected. i miss my hometown. It's my place of belonging. i miss everything there. i miss peninsula. i miss her. Now, grandma can't walk properly. No more peninsula from her. It's time to cook for her. Time to care and love her more. i love u, grandma! you r the best chef in the world!!!