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有好多时候，我们在生活上有好多的疑问。也很努力地寻找答案。很可惜，不是每一个疑问都有答案的。也不会有人专门站在你的面前，对你说，答案是bla bla bla。偏偏你最在乎的疑问是最难拿到答案的。也许，有一天，你真的找到了，才发现它一直在你身边，只是你不肯去接受它。说穿了，那也只是那不是你说喜悦的，不停地找其他的答案来遮盖它。所以，当你真的找到了，你却感觉不到丝毫的快乐。原来，没有接受，是不会快乐的。

如果是这样，与其哀痛叹息，倒不如尝试接受，不要把自己的心灵监关起来，让你的心出狱吧,它有权利去看更多美好的事物！！

he is kind

All Vickery residents should know that we need a card to access the laundry room. once it's closed, the room will be locked automatically and we have to use card again for opening it. today i carried bags of clothes, pails, detergents and so on. there's a chinese guy who just came out of laundary room. he didn't fully close the door. so, i can just enter the room by pushing the door. what a mercy for me.

he noticed my handful of stuff and he walked back, heading to the door, opening the door and stared at me.

wow~~ he is helpful as he is going to open the door for me.

when i am going to say thanks, something unexpected happened.

he closed the door, confirming the door is fully closed.

"i hope you bring your card if you are a vickery resident" he said.

"......."
yea. he is kind in protecting all vickery residents. purposely walk back and close the door again.

perhaps next time i should paste a big notice on my head when carrying loads of stuff. 'i live here, okay?'

付出

付出对我而言，是一门大学问。为自己爱的人付出，是幸福的。

为主侍奉，是一件很开心且光荣的事情。虽然，有时真的很忙，也面对不少的压力，可是，我是幸福的。因为，主常与我同在。而且，还有很多人陪我一起侍奉，他们鼓励我，带领我。侍奉的过程永远都是甜蜜的。

为家人服务，也是值得开心的。在家里，我是大家姐。时间很常要分给三只猴子。大弟忙他的matriculation。二弟忙他的form 3。小弟忙小学。老妈和老爸就忙他们的工作。有时候，单单当他们的司机，就可以花一整天的时间。可是，我还是开心的。因为，他们为我的付出往往都比我付出的多。

为朋友两肋插刀，还蛮爽的。哈哈。先注明一下，当然不是全部的朋友啦。要不然，我学naruto分身，都不够我用。有时候，在他们伤心的时候，陪他们聊天啊，能帮就尽量帮。其实，他们为我做的还真的是数不尽。arigato =)

在感情方面，就真是另当别论。为我付出的，我除了感激，也只有感激。也不会这样，而变成感动，更不会变成感觉。我付出的，也只有付出而已。其实，我没有为他付出什么，因为我始终踏进不了他的生活。每次看到他时，总是看到他看着手机，开心的传着简讯。我知道，他那种笑容，是我无法给到他的。其实，只要他没穿没烂，那不就是一件很好的事情吗？

好像还没有说到学业，不说了 =.=.数不尽的书在等着我........

p/s:不好意思啊。我没有针对任何人啊。 haha

@connie, abu and ah ma. i told u three that i will keep writing cheerful post. hmmmmm......

hmmm

since i am primary school, i hate people not to trust me.i remember when i am in primary four, i was accused for spreading gossip. all my geng abandoned me. Although everyone forgot it within few days and everything turned normal, but i never receive any apologize.

when i am secondary school, i attend a function. i was suspected for stealing money as i entered a room of a guest. i can't really the whole process. but there's sentence that leave vivid impression on me. "if you don't have enough pocket money, just let uncle know. i will give you more pocket money. okay?"

few days ago, i faced the similar situation again. person involved is one of my closed friend. maybe i am so kecil hati this time but i do really hope that that person apologizes to me. bible said 'Don't angry after sunset.' i am waiting for sunset today. haha