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有好多时候，我们在生活上有好多的疑问。也很努力地寻找答案。很可惜，不是每一个疑问都有答案的。也不会有人专门站在你的面前，对你说，答案是bla bla bla。偏偏你最在乎的疑问是最难拿到答案的。也许，有一天，你真的找到了，才发现它一直在你身边，只是你不肯去接受它。说穿了，那也只是那不是你说喜悦的，不停地找其他的答案来遮盖它。所以，当你真的找到了，你却感觉不到丝毫的快乐。原来，没有接受，是不会快乐的。

如果是这样，与其哀痛叹息，倒不如尝试接受，不要把自己的心灵监关起来，让你的心出狱吧,它有权利去看更多美好的事物！！

he is kind

All Vickery residents should know that we need a card to access the laundry room. once it's closed, the room will be locked automatically and we have to use card again for opening it. today i carried bags of clothes, pails, detergents and so on. there's a chinese guy who just came out of laundary room. he didn't fully close the door. so, i can just enter the room by pushing the door. what a mercy for me.

he noticed my handful of stuff and he walked back, heading to the door, opening the door and stared at me.

wow~~ he is helpful as he is going to open the door for me.

when i am going to say thanks, something unexpected happened.

he closed the door, confirming the door is fully closed.

"i hope you bring your card if you are a vickery resident" he said.

"......."
yea. he is kind in protecting all vickery residents. purposely walk back and close the door again.

perhaps next time i should paste a big notice on my head when carrying loads of stuff. 'i live here, okay?'

付出

付出对我而言，是一门大学问。为自己爱的人付出，是幸福的。

为主侍奉，是一件很开心且光荣的事情。虽然，有时真的很忙，也面对不少的压力，可是，我是幸福的。因为，主常与我同在。而且，还有很多人陪我一起侍奉，他们鼓励我，带领我。侍奉的过程永远都是甜蜜的。

为家人服务，也是值得开心的。在家里，我是大家姐。时间很常要分给三只猴子。大弟忙他的matriculation。二弟忙他的form 3。小弟忙小学。老妈和老爸就忙他们的工作。有时候，单单当他们的司机，就可以花一整天的时间。可是，我还是开心的。因为，他们为我的付出往往都比我付出的多。

为朋友两肋插刀，还蛮爽的。哈哈。先注明一下，当然不是全部的朋友啦。要不然，我学naruto分身，都不够我用。有时候，在他们伤心的时候，陪他们聊天啊，能帮就尽量帮。其实，他们为我做的还真的是数不尽。arigato =)

在感情方面，就真是另当别论。为我付出的，我除了感激，也只有感激。也不会这样，而变成感动，更不会变成感觉。我付出的，也只有付出而已。其实，我没有为他付出什么，因为我始终踏进不了他的生活。每次看到他时，总是看到他看着手机，开心的传着简讯。我知道，他那种笑容，是我无法给到他的。其实，只要他没穿没烂，那不就是一件很好的事情吗？

好像还没有说到学业，不说了 =.=.数不尽的书在等着我........

p/s:不好意思啊。我没有针对任何人啊。 haha

@connie, abu and ah ma. i told u three that i will keep writing cheerful post. hmmmmm......

hmmm

since i am primary school, i hate people not to trust me.i remember when i am in primary four, i was accused for spreading gossip. all my geng abandoned me. Although everyone forgot it within few days and everything turned normal, but i never receive any apologize.

when i am secondary school, i attend a function. i was suspected for stealing money as i entered a room of a guest. i can't really the whole process. but there's sentence that leave vivid impression on me. "if you don't have enough pocket money, just let uncle know. i will give you more pocket money. okay?"

few days ago, i faced the similar situation again. person involved is one of my closed friend. maybe i am so kecil hati this time but i do really hope that that person apologizes to me. bible said 'Don't angry after sunset.' i am waiting for sunset today. haha

Speaking foochow

The followings are the conversation between an aunty who only knows foochow and a girl who doesn't know foochow much.

Aunty: Nv2 eh4 ho3 meh2?

Girl: jing1 ho3.

Aunty: Nv2 zho3 nong3 mian2?

Girl: 'Menjemur' keropok. (in mandarin)

Aunty: oooh.

Girl: ya ya( in mandarin). xing3 nian2 ai1 gao3 lou3

Aunty: Haha. ngui1 moh2 kan3 ngieng4 nv2 'in' leh3 boi3 tong1

Girl: Ngui1 wu1 kuo2. ngui1 wu1 kan3 ngieng4 nv2. nv2 'is in choir'( in mandarin again)

Aunty: Ngui1 kuo2 xia3 buong1

Girl: ok ok. bye bye.

Ir's the hardest post that i have writen. cuz the aunty is my neighbour and the girl is me!!!! haha. first time speak foochow with ppl.

p/s: i believe my foochow teacher is laughing loudly now. thanks for putting tone for every words.

p/s: for those who know foochow but can't understand what i am writing, i can only say 'T.T' haha

dai lou

driving at roundabout was a big challenge for me when i learnt driving. maybe 1 minute late at roundabout can cause you to wait for few minutes more..After having years of driving, roundabout can be exciting sometimes particularly when you can grab a chance and pass through roundabout easily.

But my theory totally changes when u waited for you turn and 'dai lou'(in cantonese) is at your right side. It happened few days ago. since it's peak hour, it's quite impossible to wait until there's no car. so, as long as the car on the other road started to slow down, normally we might move forward and passed through roundabout. well. i hope my 'normally' is 'normally' for everyone too. haha

hmm. when i started to move forward, i noticed that 'dai lou' is beside me. by that time, i start to think. is it counted as unsafe driving or 'cut the queue? rm600 is not cheap since there's no discount recently. ok. as a money-minded human being, i decide to let dai lou go first. as time pasted, dai lou didn't move at all although there are lot of chances for them to pass through roundabout.

'what r u waiting for?'i thought. another dai lou sitting beside driver started to stare at me. he seemed like a teacher who put a book in front of students during exam, wave a rotan and said 'let's cheat la'.

as minutes by minutes passed by, 'barulah' dai lou started to move when a car from other road stopped in front of them.

ooo. 原来是要等车停下来，不是要等没有车。wowww

and it's the first time i stay at roundabout for more than 10 minutes without getting any horns from carssss behind me. =)

有时候

前几天，不小心撞到前几个星期的伤口，痛得我呱呱大叫。

才发现原来伤口平时不痛，

不是它已经痊愈了，

而是我把它忘了。