don't lie to yourself

it's a sad case if you lie to yourself.

when i am sad, i can tell everyone that i am fine. no worries. perhaps i can also console myself that everything is alright as i can handle it. doing other stuff, keep myself as busy as i can or even laugh loudly when talking to others. well. what's the point to lie to myself? when it turns into dark night, sadness will invade me again. so, cry as loud as i can in my own room. i believe that God creates tears for multipurposes.

if i am happy, just laugh or smile! it's an indirect way to share your happiness. hahahahaa.

be happy when you are happy. be sad when you are sad. life is not that complicated, isn't it?

smile!!

smiling is always amazing. if you are frustrated at someone, your heart might be softened if he or she smiles to you. smiles shows tolerance. of course, don't keep smiling at someone. you might be labelled as crazy guys. haha.

i was taken aback when i read an article. the police found a letter from a guy who has just commited suicide. "i will change my mind if there's someone smiling at me when walking towards the bridge.". it sounds miserable. seems like noone is willing talk or even smile to him in his life!"

so, why not smile? who knows your smile has cheered up someone in their life?

by the way, i am amazed by jacinda's laugh. haha. she delighted my heart once. haha

thinking of you

there's a lot of people appearing in our mind everyday. they can be your beloved, family members and closed friends. sometimes they can be any random people in your life. for example, your lecturer( andrew? maybe? haha), a cashier girl or anyone. some stuff and events always remind us of them. what will you feel when you think of them? frustrated? angry? happy? a deep smile? or miserable? who knows? you are the only one who knows....





the rain reminds me of perth, reminds me of umbrella at vickery house, reminds me of you =)

i am back!

hi. everyone! i am back la. will list down what i need to and who i want to meet in this break! yohoor.
1. spend time with my family members. my grandma is getting weaker. hope can spend more time with her
2.lim teh with my friends. hey hey. come and invite me for lim teh, okay?
3.finish all my works.
4. to to pak kai's wedding!!!
5. hmmmm.... still thinking. haha

david tao

i started to listen to his song since form 4 if i am not mistaken. well. to be honest. his songs do not attract me at all. it's just because my friends love that, so i did try to listen (sounded reluctant. haha). when i asked barbara where can i find david tao's songs? she said without any hesitation,TAKE IT FROM BENNY.ok lo. then, i borrow a cd from him. the first original cd that i have touched in my real life. (sheeesh. the CD producer will slaughter me). haha

i played it for many times and serious it does not match my taste. flat tone, boring and so on...

when i listen to them during college life, something has changed!! the melodies are nice and smooth. yea. undeniably, i fell in love with his songs.

Melody, tian tian, ai hen jian dang, ai wo hai shi ta, my anata and so on though these songs are very old already..

but good songs never expire, don't you think?

cold weather~~~

who says Perth is hot? it's super cold!!! i am shivering while taking bath and washing clothes. but no matter how cold it is, it's a blessing as i can sleep with warm quilt and have a nice sleep every night =). i wonder how the fish in the uni pool can survive? where will the lovely cats stay at freezing night? how can the lazy bird walk here and there without jackets?

There should be 1 answer. God grants them natural ability to survive in such extreme weather. Never worry of tomorrow. He is always with us!

April is over.....

Finally i have finished all my mid sem tests and 2 asssignments within this month. Phew.... It’s tiring candidly. For the previous month, my life is just lecture notes, tutorial, laboratories and so on. And today is Thursday! It means that my lovely Friday and weekend are coming. But i feel sad instead. One of my elderly relatives had just passed away. I was taken aback when i received this new on last Saturday. She was strong, cheerful and gave us a lot of food during cny. Visiting her in cny was one of our family activities but i didn’t do it during this year. Why? It’s just because i was lazy by that time and thought that i could visit her in the future soon. i was not granted chance anymore.

When i was small, my cousins and me like to hide her artificial hair and forced her to play seek and hide with us. Sometimes we did like to count the number of her hair since she was almost botak. Although everytime my uncle and dad scolded us, she would protect us instead. I started to miss her now.....

This is the third elderly relative who has just passed away recently. All of them were strong and looked well before i leave. Life is like that, right? Fragile, unpredictable. Shouldn’t we spend more time on our family members while we are able to do that?

Btw, there were happy events recently too. Two of my friends get married. A friend gave me huge support when i faced some problems. Thanks for sending mcd during midnight. I do really appreciate it. Thanks abu, ah kiong and ah siong for chatting with me everytime. U r always the longest worm in my stomach. Haha. Thanks to my housmates who always give me laughter and jokes. Thanks to my coursemate who always come for studying. I will pick my book unwillingly and forced me to study. i treat it as a kind of motivation. Haha

Time for me to rest, walk closer to God. Gambateh to ah ing and everyone!!!